Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Maybe I Can Stop Running Now...
I've been running (and not the good, exercise, lower your cholesterol kind) for a long time.
Two decades really.
I'll spare you the gory details of what set me aflight, but I think even if I did describe it all, 20 years of running is a tad excessive.
Only when you are running from something like that, you don't want to look back, actually it feels like you can't, so how would you know when you've achieved a safe distance so you can slow down?
It makes you afraid to stop anywhere, with anyone, for very long, let alone put down roots (things that could entangle you, trap you, make it impossible to make a quick escape).
Yet the other day I was cleaning sand off my dresser (yes, one of the many 'fun' things about living at the beach) I just thought, out of the blue, "Maybe I can stop running."
I burst into tears and I could feel the negative voices inside freak-the-f-out, but I also knew it was true.
I'm not sure if it was just the right time, the beach, or Twitter, but something fundamentally inside has shifted.
And yes, I did list Twitter in there. I think because it wasn't face to face, my usual 'anti-social' wall wasn't up quite so high and a number of people have snuck into my heart.
My new job as well (save, of course, my Nemesis, but even she is deliciously fun) has been a delight. None of the usual push-pull of my previous work relationships.
What will it feel like to be still? To be connected to something greater than myself?
I'm still not certain, but it already feels a hell of a lot better than burning rubber 24/7.
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